Your honor, I'm insane...

So here I am listening to Jack Johnson, thinking on what to write here. It's been a very uninteresting week, except for Dana's surprise visit.

I got to spend a whopping 45 minutes with her, sigh. I liked the surprise and surprises, but I rather spend some solid amount of time with her in exchange for the surprise. But she meant well, so I can't complain. Yes I can't complain, why? Because she made the effort to come here to DC even if it meant only 45 mins for me.

On Halloween weekend I went to Georgetown to check on the drunk people dressed up as gay Batman & Ugly Wonder Woman acting like retard. Ok that was too harsh, but they are funny in a drunken way. Back in my days I was about the same, but I was Bobba Fett for the last 3 years, so I retired the costume.

So I make my way into the bathroom, but the guy's room was already being used, so I sit down on the "ante" room waiting. It felt like the place was raided by fierce Amazon women tribe. Very tall like creatures. Or maybe I'm just short. Yeah I'm just short, but I felt very intimidated in there anyways. Maybe I'm so short that they didn't even notice me there, they are touching up the make up, touching up the laces, etc... Guys bathroom, opens, and another one of the tribe gets out. On the way out one of them grab/steal packets of sugar from the table? Weird.

I've been getting to work on time, on the 5-10 minutes threshold, and I gotta admit it's a whole new ball game. After work I'm pretty much dead and want to hit the bed. Somtimes, I just crash and wake up like 3AM in the morning.

Changing subject, sometimes I wonder why emotions can lead people to do some pretty fucking stupid things. It's like for that moment they are insane and are incapsulated into the oblivion where their sense of logic is skewed like you just smoke up some salvia. Like you take a step back and you know it's unfounded or just overreacting. And if any of the readers thinking I'm talking about you, not I'm not. Anyways continuing on the subject, I had my share of these stupid things before, so I'm guilty as well. But only when OTHERS do the same, you realize how stupid it is.

Another thing is that when these emotions will cloud judgement, and affect your relationship with someone. And I mean, someone important to you. I think this is what they call "Temporary insanity" in courts.

And of course all this leads to the "politics of pride". Or should I say, "politics of silence"?

See that is another thing, like when you are having issues, communication is key component to get things running, yet, under emotions we choose to ignore the chatter. "Yeah I'm delusional, and the fairy fixer will take care of everything. Did I say I smoked salvia?" That, would actually make sense.

Are we slaves to our emotions? If you are emotional, you are weak minded, if you got no emotions you are a dick. Reminds me of that quote " When I give food to the poor, they call me a saint. When I ask why the poor have no food, they call me a communist." Bottom line, you can't win.


Getting older, we have a more refined taste and if something is not in synergy with your flow, then its open for criticism. Maybe that is why older people are cranky (And I base in this absolute no reasearch or references). What happened to the hazy days in college when a little mystifying smoke would bring the childish dream of "peace and love"? Fuck, are our lives so fucking boring with the adult mold that we need to gossip and make little dramas to make our lives more interesting? For fuck's sake, these people are your/our friends. Don't criticize them. We are not the ominipotent SLASH perfect to pass judgements, specialy on our own friends. Ok maybe I'm an eternal hippie, can I get a group hug?

Her boyfriend is a dick? Hey maybe she likes to play victim to get more flair to her stale relationship.
She goes out with a loser? Maybe she got a fetish for that.
He drives horribly? Then wear the seatbealt, or step out of the car.
He drinks too much? Maybe he enjoys it.
He is a dick? Maybe your expectations/standards were too high?

Remeber my quote from 2002-3? "LET ME BE". I guess these people being criticized are thinking the same thing. When was the last time you actually learned something just from someone saying not to do? I mean, you always go do the mistake yourself to learn right? If your criticism is valid, let them take the fall and learn. But then again, your criticism is based on your own common sense, so let me end this post with this quote.

"Common sense is the collection of prejudices acquired by age eighteen."
Albert Einstein

Behave kids.