Most of you all know that I don't dream. Well ok everyone dreams, but I sleep like such a rock, that next day I don't have any recollection that I dreamt. Anyways today I dreamt, but I had two dreams. WOW. The first one was really disturbing, and the second one was weird but fun.
First dream:
The girl is real, I met her in a club, she is blond and has a boyfriend. But never prevented us right? I mean, you don't take a stranger home when your boyfriend is away. Anyways I don't know her too well.
Under the same premises, my dreams begins.
I meet her in a club, she takes me to her house and we have fun, get her number, and I actually follow through with it. Just the simple act of calling her back and setting up a date. We hit it off and after a month we are going steady. Of course, she dumped her boyfriend. I'm not ok with open realtionships, hahaha. Within this month, I start to feel for her. So at least myself, I toned down a lot in sense of being the party animal I am. Life consisted of watching movies together, dinners, occasional clubbing, sex, snuggling on the couch and so forth. Then by the end of the second month, after clubbing, we are walking around Georgetown late at night. I think we were looking for a cab or a late night restaurant. Then she pops the questions. "Do you love me?" To which I replied with "Uh, yeah. I do love you.". ONce again she asks, "Do you really love me?" Which again I reply with "Uh, yeah, I really love you. You need me to do something to prove it? Do you need reassurances?" Then she asks, "I want you to commit to a LONG term relationship with me." So at this point my mind is racing. I really like her, but I'm an asshole and immature, although I want to, I don't know know if I can make the promise of a long term relationship. But because I liked her so much I told her yes. "Yes, I want to commit to a long term relationship with you. But I'm not perfect, but because of my love to you, I will try hard." By then we are at that huge flight of stairs in Georgetown where they made the scene from Exorcist. Out of the blue she just jumps of and rolls down it. So I'm desperately chaing her down trying to stop her from further rolling down the steps. I finally get her to stop rolling down the remainder of the stairs. She is alive but she looked really hurt. So while crying, and asking her "Why? why did you do this?" I warp my jack around her and put on her my arms and carry her to a hospital. I know, I shouldn't move her and should have called an ambulance, but its a fucken dream, maybe my mind was trying to be all "romantic" by having me wrap her around with my jacket and carry her on my arms. Anyways once in the hospital, the doctor comes out and tells me that she is fine, she had some minor bruises and fractures, and that she would heal with time. That brought me some relief. I wipe my tears. But the doctor was not done yet, she tells me that she lost her baby. Now this is turning into surreal. Even in the dream it was freaking surreal. Of course the doctor assumed the baby was mine, but I knew it wasn't. She must had got pregnant with her ex right before meeting me. She couldn't have gotten pregnant from me for the obvious reasons. So was this her intention when she jump the flight of stairs? While all this was going through my mind, my cell phone rings. when I was about to reach my pocket, I wake up. My real cell phone is rining, it's Dana. hahah. I don't know if it makes any difference if I add this particular piece of information. ****
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So I chit chat with Dana for a bit, she tells me about her weekend and how she enjoyed going to so gay clubs. Quite frankly I rather not go to gay clubs, not that I have anything against them, but I really don't enjoy getting hit on by a gay guy. I mean I talk to gay people and am friendly and all, but there is a line there which I don't want crossed. So after talking to her, I hit the bed again, and go back to sleep.
Second dream:
I have many of my friends from Brazil to come over to my beach house for the weekend. We are all having fun. We catch up with lot of the missed time and events. People are drinking, laughing, joking, flirting, and so on. Just wholesome fun. I start to get really flirtitious with a friend of a friend that came along for the weekend. I wasn't even hooking up but rather, playing "the game" with her, I mean both of us. We were both laid down on the couch, I'm behind her with my arms around her. There was a lot of quick, clever and funny exchange of raunchy and dirty conversation with the occasional "estalinhos" (I don't know what's the correct translation in english, but in Brazil it basically means non meaninful kisses on the mouth without use on the tongue, just lips.). And of course a lot of laughs. The whole climate of the house was fun, and laughs from me and my friends, which was just awesome. And playing "games" with her was just fun (You know what I mean by playing the game, right? Ok.)
Then there was a late comer, someone that was very dear to me. This friend, was like the coolest girl I knew back while growing up. She looks very nice, but it's not the best looking, she is more of cute than hot, but what was really appealing was her personality. She is just one of the most caring, sweet, laid back I ever knew. Ok but in my dream, she changed a little bit. She is still all that, but now she is "grown" or should I say she had a more mature look. And looked prettier. Anyways when she gets there I didn't even knew she was coming, but a friend of mine says, "Hey I have a surprise for you, a mystery guest you haven't seen for years!" Of course I was really fucking happy to see her. We talk for a while and start making out, which is out of point here.
So after a while we decide to hit the town for some food, which is about 10 minutes walk. Everyone hit the streets. While we are all walking, I start to fly. Yes I developed the power to levitate/fly. God damn baby jesus! What the hell is this? But it was fun nonethless, because when I was younger I used to dream I could fly. What a turn of events uh? I can fly!
So I woke up.
My analysis is that I need to get laid I think, just like Dana said on our little dream intermission chat. It's been a while, hehehe. Or maybe not, because none of the dream was really sexual, but flirts and fun. Who knows. But regarding the first dream, I think my mind is trying to tell me to buckle down. Be more mature, responsible and please my mother of seeing me actually commit to one girl, be mature and responsible and possibly have a family in the near future, granted, she wants me to date korean girls or asians in general, but that most likely will not happen for the many reasons I always say on my blog. As Sodo says, maybe I am an AZN(asian) hater. Plus the girl on the dream was blond right? hahaha
Behave kids.
2 comments:
Gui, interesing dreams. Actually that first one sounds eerily like some dreams I have had before. I have several times had dreams where a baby dies. Like someone drops it or something, or else it is neglected. Now that wouldn't be so weird, but once I had a dream like that in Brazil and I was talking to a friend about it and he said that he also had had that dream. So maybe its common. I find that it usually happens a couple weeks after I break up with a girl so I am becoming "dead to the world." Men impregnate women (obviously), and of course women impregnate men (in a different way) so I always thought that was a representation of our "love" dying.
Funky. I am impressed by the clarity of your details. The first one I think it more important. I think that you feel guilty for not loving someone. It is wierd that you feel you won't commit to a long relationship unless someone threatens you with doing themselves bodily harm. I think the second one is trying to tell you taht maybe searching for hot girls isn't going to satisfy you. You can only enter a long term relationship with a friend that you care a lot about.
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